i have a confession.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014 0 , , 0 kiss me?

I'm usually the life of the party. I'm expected to be the one to make everyone feel better. And I do. The upper right video: sad. The lower left: temporarily happy. The lower right with my babygirl Tyasia: 100% happiness. Why the shift in moods? I'm having an ongoing battle with depression, PTSD & anxiety, with little to no support. I was recently diagnosed & I still get confused about it sometimes. The people who should be there for me: don't. I'm afraid I'm going to lose myself. But I know my God won't allow it. I know my God will provide when needed. As of today, I don't have expectations of anyone anymore. I sit here with tears in my eyes because I'm hurting, scared that someone will use this post as a weapon against me. Feeling alone in this journey because no one wants to take the time to learn what I'm going through. I'm posting this because as goofy as I am, you may never know what a ...

love is a temporary madness.

Monday, August 18, 2014 0 , 2 kisses!

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two. — St. Augustine

another reality check to deposit.

Sunday, August 17, 2014 0 , 4 kisses!

Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn't have to fight for a spot. Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends. Once you feel you are avoided by someone, never disturb them again. When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things a chance to catch you. The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. Yes, help others; but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now. Friendships/relationships must be chosen wisely. ...

he broke a stereotype.

Sunday, August 10, 2014 0 , 2 kisses!

The notion that all Black men come from the hood is obviously perpetuated by rap. If you ask Drake, he started from the bottom but now he’s here & he brought his whole team with him, lyrics from “Started From the Bottom.” In reality, Drake spent the majority of his childhood on television sets filming the Canadian TV series, Degrassi. There’s nothing “bottom” about that. People may not like to admit it, but rappers lie. All of them are not from the hood, and neither is all of the Black population. (more…)

better than yesterday.

Saturday, August 9, 2014 0 , 2 kisses!

If you had a great morning and everything seemed good, till your day began to get bad and then continued becoming worse, you need to understand that the only reason, it continued to become worse, is because you allowed it to. Your tolerance of it, permitted it to continue its flow and disrupt your day. Therefore, if you are to experience a similar situation again, always remember to, set your mind on the morning and take your mind off the latter part, because when you do that, your morning comes to your rescue and asks your latter part to leave. Always bring your mind to a state of peace, instead of allowing it, to enter into a state of trouble. Also...just because you didn't have a peaceful day, doesn't mean that you cannot have a peaceful night. Be strong when you go to bed at night and know that, whatever you went through during the day, has passed by and is over. Its a new beginning, an opportunity for you to ...

the male sacrifice.

Friday, August 8, 2014 1 , , 3 kisses!

Did you know the greatest gift you will ever receive in life is when the exact replica of you is born? How can you look into the eyes of a child and never look back? 72% of black mothers are single parents. 72 percent. I’m not sure what is instilled in our men, (especially black men), but it’s time now for everyone to try to make a change. So what if your father wasn’t around. That should be the sole purpose, and motivation, for you to be there for your own child because you have full blown experience in how that feels. My mother wasn't around yet I'm with Tyasia 24/7. Women, please be careful and take heed in who you are choosing to father your child. I know there are situations where unfortunately, you have no clue the man is a deadbeat until AFTER you have the child but guess what…most times…we get those signs. Do not ignore these signs. Set your standards high when you choose who should father your ...

my idol.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014 0 , , 2 kisses!

There's nothing more soothing than waking up to the lovely sounds of my daughter, aka John Mayer, serenading me with her acoustic guitar. I want to exude what I’ve raised Tyasia to be. I actually admire her. She’s free-spirited, laid back, and really doesn’t care what the world thinks of her. She may be turning 16 in a few weeks, but she's my idol. I'm highly favored and blessed for the life, talents and love that God has provided for me. Always remember it starts with HIM. Not your parents, not your bank account, not within. Once you believe and have 100% faith, He will bless you with everything you need. Maybe not all at once...but it will come. Patience & prayer are key! With that being said, I would like to thank ALL of you for your YEARS of support. You've watched Tyasia grow into a beautiful young lady, you've watched my weave grow, and you watched the bond that we all have for each other. This drew a lot ...