Karma: It’s a major task to not seek revenge when someone do you wrong. But when that same person keeps testing you, it becomes hard to “turn the other cheek”. Where I’m from, we say fuck the other cheek. Seek justice. Don’t get me wrong. Karma has not failed me. Eventually, I will get an update on how a person who was vindictive towards me is doing, and 9 times out of 10 they are not doing okay. I smile whenever I get these updates. Not because I wish bad on people but because I am satisfied that karma finally catches up them. However, I’m tired of waiting that long for karma. And I want to take up matters in my own hands. Because I do it so well, and so much better. Recently I had a patient who was relentless in her attempt to get me fired. All because I wouldn’t give her what she wanted. Had I give her what she wanted, I would have jeopardized my job because it was against the rules. But not giving her what she wanted ended up in her trying to get me fired. You’re damned if you do, and you’re damned if you don’t. I thought about sneaking into the parking lot and giving this spoiled rich bitch a piece of my mind, and maybe a piece of my knuckles. But it was raining and I didn’t feel like getting my hair wet.
Taking someone for granted: People become too comfortable with you when you’re too nice. Then, when you decide to tell them about themselves, you’re not acting like “yourself”. Not entirely true. I am being myself. It’s just that I’ve remained nice for too long. I kept catering, and only catering, YOUR feelings. You keep fucking up, I keep forgiving and now you’re taking advantage of me. It stops today.
Cowardice: An example of cowardice is telling everyone how you really feel about a friend, except for the actual person. I’m the type of person that if I have an issue, I’m going to address it with you. Not with Tom. Not with Keisha. With YOU. These days, people don’t have the balls to tell you how they feel. They don’t have the loyalty to talk to you directly. These days, people aren’t able to handle confrontation, or constructive criticism. The world revolves around them. Everyone wants you “keep it 100%”, but when you do that, they don’t want to accept what’s handed to them. “Communicate with me”. Grant them their wish, next thing you know, YOU’RE the one with the “issue”. You’re the “delusional” one. “Girl, you’re tripping”. – No, I’m not tripping. You just can’t handle the truth. When all is said & done, you got nothing accomplished. You walk away feeling like things are unfinished and then the “friend” runs off to complain to OTHER people about you. Instead of just keeping it where it was: private. There’s a name for people like this that also falls under the category of cowardice: bitch. Also: Male bitch, female bitch, immature bitch, big bitch, lil bitch, insecure bitch, self-centered bitch, dumb bitch & stupid bitch. Everyone wants to be respected, without actually giving that respect. Well, you’re not going to get what you don’t deserve. Fuck you.
This week, I don’t know. I am exhausted. I feel like so many people have showed their true colors towards me. Either they’re jealous of what I have going for myself or they want a piece of my positivity because they’re too miserable to find happiness on their own. Well, I got news for you, I’m over it. I’m over getting riled up. I don’t have the energy for it anymore. From this day forward, I’m only going to focus on the positive.
