If you don’t feel good about yourself, it’s hard to feel good about anything or anyone else. Especially after someone put you down. You see everything with a bad eye. You miss the value and worth of every experience. You limit yourself because you don’t feel good about who you are or what you do. You hold yourself back because you don’t believe what you want is worthwhile. You put yourself in situations that are either compromising, abusive or unproductive. You feel bad about yourself because of what you’ve done. The only way to get out of the cycle is to allow yourself to believe the world is waiting for who you are becoming. Age doesn’t play a factor. Nor does education. What you need to do is surround yourself with people that appreciates you & will welcome you simply for being who you are and not what they want you to be. Complaining about it isn’t going to make it any better. Do something about it. Life is about movement. Life is going to be a challenge. There will be rough times, difficult situations, major obstacles and forks in the road that will distract you from reaching your destination. There will be manipulative people that are envious of your accomplishments & people that will succumb to spreading rumors about you because they don’t have what it takes to reach your level. For every personal goal that I’ve tried to accomplish there was always at least one thing (or person) trying to get in my way. But I’m no fool. I looked beyond that and kept striving to succeed. Granted not everything I started I finished, but I gave it my best while I was active in it. The only way to get where you want to be is to do what needs to be done to get there.
There are so many things I need to apologize for and so many people I need to apologize to.
I’m sorry that my blogs are too long. I’m sorry that I’m too emotional. I’m sorry that I’m a fantastic employee. I’m sorry that my Christmas bonus was greater than yours. I’m sorry that I’m independent. I’m sorry that I am human and at times, I do need help. I’m sorry that I’m not perfect. I’m sorry my bra size is a 36D. I’m sorry that if the internet did not exist, I can still go on with my life. I’m sorry that my hair be looking fly. I’m sorry at times, I think I’m the shit. I’m sorry that I annoy you sometimes. I’m sorry that you’re tired of my shit. I’m sorry that I’m not a size 8. I’m sorry I disappointed you. I’m sorry I broke his heart. I’m sorry I burp really loud and a lot. I’m sorry that my ass ain’t big. I’m sorry people feel the need to speak on things they have no idea about. I’m sorry there are rumors out there about me. I’m sorry people believe them & keep my name in their mouth. I’m sorry that I don’t care. I’m sorry that I don’t fuck on the first date. I’m sorry that I called you a bitch. I’m sorry that I have a low-tolerance for ignorance and bad breath. I’m sorry I’m great in bed. I’m sorry I snore. I’m sorry I don’t want him. I’m sorry that he wants me. I’m sorry he’s not the only person that wants me.
I’m sorry about my road rage. I’m sorry for not paying my bills on time. I’m sorry that I cried. I’m sorry that I have asthma. I’m sorry I’m addicted to nose spray. I’m sorry you’re so pussy that you have to talk about me behind my back. I’m sorry I cheated. I’m sorry I left. I’m sorry my handwritten is pretty. I’m sorry for not inviting you to my birthday party. I’m sorry I handle my liquor better than you. I’m sorry you don’t know how to stay the fuck out my business. I’m sorry you always have something slick to say about me to one of my friends. I’m sorry I have to censor myself because your ass is too sensitive to hear the truth. I’m sorry I accidentally overheard you tell her “I love you”. I’m sorry that I don’t think you’re a good mother. I’m sorry that I am less than perfect. I’m sorry I don’t have heavy menstrual cycles. I ‘m sorry that you’re always scared to tell me how you feel. I’m sorry that I have a thing for younger men. I’m sorry that I don’t need you. I’m sorry that I made that painfully obvious when we broke up. I’m sorry that I don’t want you back.
I’m sorry that I am popular. I’m sorry that I’m the life of the party. I’m sorry that you will never get over me. I’m sorry that you keep coming to my site, even though you can’t stand me. I’m sorry that I embarrassed you. I’m sorry that I called you a faggot. I’m sorry that because of that, people now know that you are a faggot. I’m sorry you’re a lousy lay. I’m sorry you’re broke. I’m sorry your teeth are fucked up. I’m sorry I faked my orgasms. I’m sorry I would never take you seriously. I’m sorry your pansy ass always back out of a confrontation. I’m sorry I’m brutally honest. I’m sorry it was only a one night stand. I’m sorry your hairline is missing. I’m sorry you’re ugly. I’m sorry I don’t need to post sexual pictures of myself in order to get attention. I’m sorry I don’t do webcam shows. I’m sorry I avoid talking to people I don’t know. I’m sorry that I don’t need child support, but I still get it. I’m sorry that I didn’t call you back. I’m sorry I deleted you off my myspace. I’m sorry I declined your facebook request. I’m sorry that after all of your failed attempts, I’m still happy. I’m sorry I enjoy life, each and everyday.
I’m sorry for being Chanel and I’m sorry that you cannot understand me.
I’m sorry if you also don’t understand the definition of sarcasm & embracing someone’s flaws. I’m sorry that you believed that I am truly apologizing.
No…I’m not.
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LMAO @ im sorry I think im the shit at times haha, love it
hope all is good with you
Okay, I have to say that this is the best post I think anyone’s ever written. I was like wow, that’s so awesome that last part “I’m sorry if you also don’t understand the definition of sarcasm & embracing someone’s flaws. I’m sorry that you believed that I am truly apologizing.” Awesome. Just plainly exploding with awesomeness!
There are so many times I’ve wanted to (sarcastically) apologize to people for something. I’ve always resisted the urge, though. Maybe I’ll just link them to this entry next time :blog2:
All is well, thank you. Why is your site down?
mines not down, where lol I see it there……..
You know what…I clicked on your name from my previous post and that lead me to naughty-naughty.net. lol, your typo.
Okay, I hvnt laughed that hard in a minute. Thank you oh so much, I needed that. “Im sorry I called you a faggot, im sorry bcuz of that everyone knows your a faggot”. You rock my socks lol
I can definately relate to this post,finished with my man this wk n felt really down but i feel so much better after reading this so,thank you chanel. x
lmfao, you’re fuckin’ ruthless man.
whats with the name change?
:blogty: I failed haha. :dumbass: you know haha think it was one of those days
“chanellie” is more of a personal nickname. Only family and friends call me that. I feel “diaryofchanel” is more sophisticated.
I really liked reading that, it even made me feel better. I figure we’re all who we’re and at the same time, we’re finding ourselves as well. If people don’t like us for who we are, they can move on.
Jaz xxx
Hey, you changed your website AGAIN. Well, I just wanted to say to you that I don’t think you should be sorry for any of those things and I know that you aren’t but the fact is that they make you who you are. I think you’re just great even if we don’t talk much anymore and I don’t tell you often enough. You are amazing. Love ya, girl. <333
I knowwwww. I promise this is the last time! I love this domain name.
Yeah it sucks that we can’t speak like how we used before. I miss our talks. Love you too <333
you already know I LOVE this post!
Sooooooo, this was like the best post ever! LOL! No, I loved it and so on point! I’m sorry I’m kissing your ass right now, LOL!
I really do not like it when people think I should be a certain way. I have always paved my own path… hence why my ex-husband and I did not marry. He did not like my ideas. I can be cocky and I love to speed. I have been pulled into human resources at work to learn that upper management had been reported to by several employees that I was speeding. I told them that it was not their job to talk to me and they could talk with my lawyer (gave them the name and phone number too.)
I do not like it when people are close minded and think it something was decided by everyone or no one when it was just them and maybe 2 other people. That is being a megalomaniac. I have come across too many people who cannot just say “I agree to disagree.” Instead they want to change someone to do what they do.
Who cares if you have a long blog. I will read it all. It is your blog and you can do whatever you want. I love the sarcasm back at the haters.
:rofl: I’m sorry that I absolutely loved this post..
no I’m not. lol
Your blogs are always so full of truth, it’s scary, lol. Not in a bad way though.
There are a lot of things I need to apologise about too, but hell. They’re what makes me me, and I wouldn’t change for anyone but me. xD
Also, you’ve now got that OneRepublic song in my head. -_-;;
Chanel, I just hope that you keep on doing you and doing it to the best of your ability. I think you do and have always had a lot going for you and it’s sad that when people see someone so independent and self-assured that they try to bring them down. Was it Katt Williams said that you have to work on your own star player and recognize yourself as your MVP? If you don’t love yourself and put YOU first then who will?
Dayum this post was deep!!
“I’m sorry that my blogs are too long.”
as i skimmed it, before i started reading, i was thinking…damn this is long.. and then you said that and it was all better….haha
I don’t think you should apologize at all. So go you!
That was a very interesting post. I like the paragraphs with all the sorrys in them except it got hard to read after the first one. But if you were to read each one on it’s own then they were very entertaining.
I’m sorry that I’m just now finding your blog. This shit was inspired! I give it 3 snaps in a z-formation! Lol
I think sometimes we all think we are the shit. some of us are and some of use need a serious reality check lol. I love your posts they are always interesting.
Nice! Loving the sarcasm of those apologies XD People sure love to complain about stupid shit. The sad part is, there are people so full of themselves that they *wish* you meant it!