Dear You,
Sometimes it feels like I hate you. But at nights, in my dreams, I miss you so much. At first we had a powerful electric connection. In person you were more then I expected. The first time I laid my eyes on you I couldn’t help what I was feeling. I knew then that you were no longer a myth. I knew a lot of women wanted you, needed you & stalked you. Yet I still walked with my head held high just knowing that you were there. A day without you felt like a month without food. I was hungry, damn near starving for your presence. That’s how it felt being exposed to your power & strength. When it came down to you, I became very selective. More then anyone I ever dealt with. As picky as I am, I chose you. You took me to a place that I thought never even existed. I felt so child-like around you. You made me feel like a nurtured baby. Once struck, I looked at you differently. I thought of you differently. I touched you differently. You are so amazing, so beautiful. Sometimes I swear I must have lost my mind, but if I’m crazy…it’s because of you. I’ve finally found you again. And I’m terrified at the thought of losing you. You disappeared so quickly before because I doubted you. I thought you were against me. Due to your prolonged absence…I stopped believing in you. But now that you’re back in my life, I will never let you go. I promise. You are the immortal answer to my prayers. You’re irreplaceable. And I am glad I have you back in my life.
Ode To Love
Sincerely,
Chanel
By Angelica, April 12, 2009 at 4:53 pm
I’ve never had a bad relationship but I know how it is to grieve over the past. I really can’t forgive and forget no matter how hard I try.
Your ode to love is beautiful.
By randi, April 13, 2009 at 2:53 am
girl you got a crazy stalker on my twitter lol, she thought the comment on my blog you left was left by me haha, @reply to me so i can link you to it, its comedy.
By lissa, April 14, 2009 at 12:08 am
This really hit a spot. I’m so glad I came to visit today. Thanks Chanel. :blogiii:
Lissa
By Kiera, April 14, 2009 at 4:36 am
“A day without you felt like a month without food.”
Lord knows I know that feeling.
By Sheena, April 14, 2009 at 10:00 pm
I can honestly relate to this post. I was doing the EXACT same thing when I entered my current relationship. I always compared him to my ex and how my ex broke my heart and blah blah blah. He always told me that I can’t treat him the same, but its just hard to not do so I didn’t know that I was driving and pushing him away from me, because of that. I learned that it takes time, and slowly but surely I’ve did just that. I let the past be the past. I learned from my mistakes, and kept it moving. Cause all I was doing was hurting myself and him in the process. Besides, I think by being in that bad relationship it made me appreciate the one I’m in so much.
By Amber, April 15, 2009 at 9:25 am
Such good advice. I hope everything works out in the long run.
By Nadine, April 16, 2009 at 12:48 am
as much as the past is the past, I believe
that it’s never that easy to completely
move on. to me, time is a factor. yes, it’s
never good to bring baggage of an old relationship
into a new one but I guess it takes time to
actually move on.
hope all goes well with you..
By Jane, April 17, 2009 at 6:44 am
I am not one to hold on to the past, as there is nothing you can really do about it. I always try and find the silver lining to everything, which makes me really bad to have a serious conversation with unless you are wanting a humorous light hearted twist.
By Shonni, April 20, 2009 at 4:06 pm
Damn Chanel, nice entry! :blogyj: I touched on this in my latest entry…learning from experience in a positive light is so beneficial. One can learn a lot from it. Holding on to all the heartbreak and then finger pointing can make you miserable. I’m so glad I know the difference between perfect and imperfect.
By riven agares, April 25, 2009 at 11:03 am
relationships are easy.
realize that like everything else in life they have a terminal nature…they will end. be it 70 years from now when one partner passes on, or 7 minutes from now when you find out his penis is only 2 inches. whatever the duration, whatever the reason..on a long enough time line, the relationship ends.
this being said; the point is not to be morbid or negative about the possibilities, but conversely to embrace the freedom that knowledge enables you to have. there is no need to create complex rules of engagement..you two may only have a week.
enjoy today
enjoy today
enjoy today
because tomorrow isn’t real and after the sun sets, you have forever to dwell on yesterday.
..ra
By Ms_Slim, May 11, 2009 at 12:27 pm
“When you try to throw people out of our hearts & minds all you’re doing is building that brick wall.”
Indeed. It is definitely something I struggle with.
Your letter is awesome!